While aware of the ick that I am, but also of the good I can do. There's kind people in my life and that I have yet to meet that would benefit tremendously from....
"Sometimes ugly is beautiful"
Very unsure of what I'm illegally able to do...
As a convicted felon with several misdemeanors, a few sons (one's a fur baby), a disabled mother, siblings mentally struggling, no life partner, and no big baller bank account, not even a basic...
Well I'm going to be treading extraordinarily lightly for the time being. Life is like a game, and I'm ready to learn how to play.
I honestly feel a little nervous about the Celebrity Death Match little jokey jokes I put in my
under but there it is.... And sadly no footage of me doing comedy but I swear it's happened.... ... Apologies, but currently my mind is only thinking of mean jokes so until next time.
NO NO NO I CAN'T READ OR WRITE PROPERLY......
You heard it here first.
But I speak two languages, and if I can get my brain gets it together,
I'll learn more so I want be a bore... Bazinga! (Only seen Young Sheldon)
It's not you, it's me... At times I struggle with eye contact for a list of reasons....... Tell ya later.
Be aware I've got more than just some PTSD... As in possibly bipolar, at times narcissistic, also could be autistic... Not sure, as therapist and I...
Well everyone that knows just laughs with me and says I should make a comedy set... One of those "It's funny cause it's true" sort of situation.
Update:
Sadly like James Buchanan / the united states 15th president / the worst president, I am also single and it is effecting my everything.. Since I'm single and don't see my circle that often, I spend a lot of time be myself having different mental breakdowns, a sort of manic episodes, with a dump truck of anxiety, and trauma. They come and can go on for hours, days, an entire week. Which means I'm a horrible mother, and that fact can sink me even further. Especially since my sons are now 17 and 20, they deserved more than what life has given them... So I have to figure this out, so at least the rest of their lives can be better... Like my God sister who recently went through the biggest heartbreak one can ever go through.... And because I messed up so bad beforehand I wasn't physically able to be there... Which my amazing sister understood..... But she'll never really be happy again, but she said my ideas give her hope, and that if she's going to keep living it might as well be in luxury.. Also that she's willing to die along side me while trying to help make this world a better place.. I'd like to be recognized as a living rights activist, as I believe in the protection and rights of people, animals, and the planet. I understand the feeling of being overwhelmed, uncertainty, hungry, loneliness, hurt, scared, and being in jail.